Was informed on saturday 7.30pm by sis that dad is hospitalised. I was reeling with shock when I saw the sms.

Initially dad is having breathing difficulty due to vocal cord paralysis or paresis (partial paralysis). Dad partial vocal cord has failed him resulting some wheezing sound everytime dad speak. (The vocal cords are two bands of muscle that form a "V" inside the larynx. We use the larynx when we breathe, talk, or swallow. Its outer wall of cartilage forms the area of the front of the neck referred to as the "Adams apple.")(source fr.http://www.medterms.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=9019)

They put dad on oxygen tank for a couple of minutes, he felt almost alright, however the moment dad stepped out of the hospital, again he had a hard time breathing, again he was admitted in ICU.

The doc from E & P told mum, dad needs to be operated right away to place a tube in dad's voice box to ease his breathing difficulty. At 9.30pm, dad was wheeled into the operating theathre, I was numb with fear and shock, being so faraway I do not know what to do. However mum told me, doc said is just a minor surgery, nothing to worry about.

11.30, mum called, the surgery is a success, dad is alright though he still can't talk and eat. Tomorrow dad will be again go for scope to see what went wrong resulting the the larynx to fail to function.

I will be going back this weekend, I've promise dad a father's day threat but now dad neither can eat nor talk . . . . .

Life's fragile.

I cried buckets when I read this;

http://xiaodoudou.blogspot.com/2005_12_01_xiaodoudou_archive.html.


p/s: My colleague must have thought I went nuts, sobbing in front of the computer screen.heh.

To the man in my life;

"Pa,..I'm sorry for not being able to make it back for Father's Day, even more sorry that I didn't even put an effort to go back home more often, I promise that I will try harder and I won't disappoint you and mum for all the effort, support and encouragement.

I know I do not know how to communicate with you at times, but it hurts me a lot to see you sitting there,alone, isolated from all of us, staring at the space aimlessly, I couldn't tell what you are thinking, I could've only guess what you are thinking, I feel so hopeless and useless at times thus I pretend, I pretend that you've never change,you are still my same old pa.

But no matter what happen to you, however ways you have change, you are still my soft spoken pa who will shield and protect me from ma's canning, who play the middle person whenever ma and I gave each other silent treatment, who gives me financial assistant whenever I needed them. You never once question my ability even when I've failed you.

Lastly I would like to wish you 'Happy Father's Day and I love you Pa.."

Dear Great One Above,

This will be my 1st official letter to you. For the past couple of months you have been ignoring me, thus I've decided to take this whole matter in my own hands and seize this perfect opportunity to write directly to you. I'd begged with puppy dog eyes and all for you to show me your Greatness though I haven't resorted to walk into the lion den screaming your name yet.

I give up.

Recently however, You seemed to took a pleasure of pulling my legs and watching me squirmed in discomfort.

You've gave me a perfect solution to each situation and yet You created more and more these absolutely 'perfect' situation just for me. All these requires the winning solution from me. But Your perfect creation is like 2 totally different jigsaw puzzle. Unique itself, though both are jigsaw puzzle, they paint a different story each, one can neither combine them or choose them both. This equals to decision-making = dilemma on my part.

I would certainly hope that I have been a good source of entertainment for You but this has has to come to an end. You can roll on the floor laughing Your ass off looking at my dumbfucked expression for one last time as I am pulling the brake on your jokes. Let's hope You could perform some miracles some last minute to reinstate my faith in you though that will be tons of hard work on Your part. Last but not least, I would like to thank you for Your undivided attention on me for this short period span. Thank you and bless You.

Regards,
Your source of entertainment

Who said anything about 6.6.06 is bad omen? anti christ?

Is one of the best day that I've had over the past week okay?

First of all, I got a freaking fabulous *ahem haircut and oh-so neat pedicure. I am telling you, the last time I rave on and on about my haircut was donkey years ago and I have not ever since found a good stylist who knows what he's doing with his pair of scissors.

Kenny Chiam from The Mod @ Sri Hartamas, I love you for you made me feel like a goddess, thank you thank you *drop a tear or two.

So now I have a shoulder length bob with punk-rocker-chick type of fringe. Sweett. *swing hair around.

And then Dc dragged me to scour for some nicely renovated preowned condos to take a peep. We found one perfect one last week, sadly it was snapped up by some cash rich ah pek just a day before dc wanna made his downpayment. Depress about losing such a good deal,he was in deep blue funk for the past 2days, wallowing with self pity with his ps2.

However, we found another almost nearly as perfect as the one we lost the other day, and I have to say, I prefer this one over the lost deal which is more zen in design and decoration wise whilst the other one is more homely and family oriented. Dc decided to buy it, agent, owner and dc is happy, I am ecstatic even Sam(moi-s housemate) loves it. So everyone is content, great~

Anyhoo, moi decided to give the engineering firm a try, at least an interview. Will see how it goes.

p/s: Will post up some pics of the new hairstyle,the new place if moi have the time to pay it another visit and maybe my collection of earrings as well.. if I have the time..

The Great One above has definitely dumped me..for good. Has been nursing my deflated ego over past weekend. Shall not dwell on that anymore, do not wanna add salt on an open wound.

Anyhoo, after an engineering firm rang me up again to offer me a position in their firm. This is like the 2nd time they offered me the same position citing that with my QUALIFICATION?? and (nonexistent) EXPERIENCE is just what they needed for THAT position? ?

I am still toiling with the idea. I am not sure at all as I love my current job...but the pay is just insufficient.

After the past experience, I became more suspicious especially of those large and prestigious firm, I went through hell and I do not feel like going through the emotional torture again.

By the way, The Great One Above played a sick joke on me while I am nursing a broken heart, the ex company called and basically told me they would like to have me again on their team and if I would consider the same position again?

Sick, sick, sick joke, if I were to take up the offer, wouldn't that be like digging my own grave?