Family..

yesterday,while in the office, my mum rang me up early in the morning, 11am, too early for my mum, for those who knows her, her wake up time is 12.00pm thus 11am is early, i wonder what's the important issue..

me : yes?

mum: aiyoh, you know, your little bro forged your dad's signature and wrote a letter to the college and said that he wants to quit college.."

me : ....speechless for a moment*..WHAT??????

mum: and i just received a letter from the college..a warning letter, he will be barred from exam if he really wants to drop out.

me : WHY THE HELL DID HE DO THAT FOR?

mum: he said he cant cope and he wants to consider other courses.

me : LIKE WHAT? THEN WHY THE HELL HE ASKED FOR A NEW COMPUTER FOR? FOR HOMEWORK? MY ASS!!!..(i actually blurted out that part..seriously)

mum: haiya that's why we need you to talk to him about la, see what his interest really is,we don't want to force him but neither does we want him to discontinue studying. Is for his future sake..

me : seriously ma..what makes you think he will listen to me?

mum: ...talk to him, okay..i am getting headache from all of this..yadda yadda yadda..

me : okay..i will see how.

i feel bad after mum hung up, feel guilty when she told me she couldn't sleep because of this matter, guilty and depressed, but i know my parents feel 1000times more worse.

i did not ring up my brother about this matter straightaway as i was raving mad at that moment, with so much cursing and swearing, i could have string all the words into a new song for Eminem to whine about. Instead i diligently focused on finishing up some drawings and chatted on msn about this problem with a good pal, he gave me some good pointers on how to broach the subject properly, the main point is..

" let your brother knows that you and your family cares about him, it means a lot"

i stopped my eminem rap for a moment, i was stunned and touched by what he said. Then it finally downed me that, not all the big sister talk means shouting and yelling at my brother just because i think he's irresponsible, sometimes a caring gesture meant a lot and i should really listen instead of shooting out angry comments with a know-it-all-attitude.

and you know what, til now i still haven't had the guts to call my brother as i am still wondering myself how to bring up the matter with him gently. In the mean time, i will just get him a good present for his 18th birthday which is looming nearer, will brooch this sensitive issue only after his birthday,i do not want him to feel bad on his birthday. wish me luck=)

p/s: dearest pal, thanks million for the great advices.